Visiting the Akashic Records

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The first time I had an Akashic Records reading was when I was in graduate school, more than five years ago. I did a small podcast on that experience, which you can listen to here.

After that experience I knew I wanted to learn more about the Akashic Records and maybe even take some courses so that I too could read them. But like with many other things I am interested in, the time was not right. So I did not purse that path right away. Then about 8 months ago I started reading the Tarot, and that sparked my interests in the Akashic Records again. So I did what I do, I researched, and read, and found some useful sites to help me get started.

There are many books about the Akashic Records, which I will be purchasing in the near future. There is also courses which you can take to learn more and get some help accessing the records.  I was happy to find the Pathway Prayer Process by Linda Howe through a series of blog posts that she published here. Another site that has really useful information is Akashic Records of the Soul.

From my research I learned that anyone can access the records, you don’t have to have mystical powers, or be psychic, you don’t even need to go through training. After I found the Opening and Closing prayers from Linda Howe I gave it a try.

Reading the records is like meditation, but with the purpose of receiving information or having a question answered. The first time I did it, it was for a few minutes, maybe 5 or 6. I didn’t have an enlightening experience and my kundalini did not rise, but it felt nice and peaceful being in the Hall of the Records. No one talked to me on that first visit. I didn’t feel any energy present, it was just relaxing.  I said the closing prayer and I moved on with my day. Through out the day I felt better though, because I had taken those few minutes to sit in silence with myself.

The second time I tried reading my records I had a bit of a different experience. I said the Opening Prayer, this time I had some questions I wanted to ask, lots of questions actually, so I was repeating them in my mind, one after the other, without really giving pause between each question. Then I had this feeling of energy swirling around me kind of chaotically, and I heard a voice that told me to “shhh”, I was making too much noise, asking too many questions, too loudly and too fast. I asked this voice if it was one of my guides, it said no, that it was just the shop keeper. For whatever reason I thought he was pulling my leg. Why else would this presence come and speak to me if it’s not one of my guides, what is it doing in my records? With these thoughts swirling around my mind I started to feel scared. Then I heard a second voice that told me not to be afraid, and to have patience, to learn to sit quietly and go inside myself. This second voice had a presence that was very loving and soothing, in my limited intelligence I associated her with a female energy. The first voice I associated with a male energy.

When I had my first record reading I was told that 3 energies had come forward, one was mischievous, the other loving and soothing, and one was mysterious, or that the person reading the records couldn’t tell much about it. I’m think I met the mischievous and loving presences that second time. After sitting quietly for a while I closed the records and went about my day.

It took me a few days to go back again, because I didn’t know what to make of that voice that told me to be quiet. I felt unsure, was it a guide or was it just my mind? But I liked the feeling of being in the Akashic Records so I went back one more time a few days after.

On this third visit I was met by a different presence. This one felt comfortable to me, it talked like me, but wiser than me, but it felt familiar  and it invited me to go and connect with them often in the Akashic Records.

So that has been my experience so far. I am glad that I am finally getting to work with the Akashic Records and I hope to share here what I learn.

 

Bless me, Ultima Oracle Spread

This month on my Instagram account I am participating on a month long challenge that consists of doing spreads based on popular fairy tales and stories. Day  16 of the challenge is the DIY spread day. I decided to create a spread based on one of my  favorite and most influential books I have read, Bless Me, Ultima, by Rudolfo Anaya. Here is the plot as described by Wikipedia:

Set in the small town of Guadalupe, New Mexico just after World War II,[16] Antonio Márez y Luna (Tony) tells his story from the memories of his adult self, who harkens back to his childhood and reflects on his growing up. Anaya uses the basic structure of the Bildungsroman to weave a tale from the child’s point of view of good and evil, of life and death, of myth and reality that challenges young Tony’s beliefs about God, his family and his destiny. His progress in learning about life is grounded in Ultima, an aged and wise member of the community who is highly respected by Tony’s parents. Tony has a very special relationship with her, as she was the midwife at his birth. Throughout the story she passes on her wisdom and knowledge to Tony.

The novel begins as Tony’s parents, Gabriel and Maria, invite Ultima to come and live with them when Tony is about to turn seven—just reaching the age of reason. As Tony, with Ultima’s guidance, searches for his true identity and his rightful destiny, he witnesses several deaths, assists Ultima in purging his uncle Lucas of an evil spell, experiences a crisis of faith in the Catholic tradition, embraces the myth of the golden carp, discovers the sordidness of his older brother, survives a harrowing illness and realizes that he may be the only heir to the cultural and spiritual legacy that was Ultima, for Ultima is the last of her kind.

Throughout the novel Tony struggles with his identity. In the first chapter Anaya establishes the roots of this struggle through Tony’s dream—a flashback to the day of his birth. In his dream Tony views the differences between his parents’ familial backgrounds. His father’s side, the Márez (descendents of the sea), are the restless vaqueros who roam the llanos and seek adventure. The Lunas, his mother’s side, are the people of the moon, religious farmers whose destiny is to homestead and work the land. Each side of the family wants control of the newborn’s future. But, as the dream ends, Ultima intercedes and takes on the responsibility for knowing and guarding Tony’s destiny herself. His mother’s dream is for him to become a Roman Catholic priest, His father’s dream is to embark on a new adventure and move west to California with his sons to recapture the openness of the Llano he has foregone in moving to the town.

Early on Antonio must come to grips with the opposition between good and evil. Ultima, in her role as protector, uses her knowledge of healing and magic to neutralize the evil witchcraft the three daughters of Tenorio Trementina have wrought on Tony’s uncle, and toward the end her soul struggles against the evil of Tenorio himself.

Over the course of the novel Antonio becomes disillusioned with the faith and through Cico, one of his closer friends learns of another god. Throughout the novel Tony keeps trying to reconcile the complexity of his mixed familial heritage Lunas with the Márez,and his mixed religious heritage: traditional Catholicism with the Native American religion.

Early on Tony’s experience preparing for and making his First Communion, the second rite of passage of the Catholic Church, leaves him disillusioned as he did not receive the spiritual knowledge he had expected. He begins to question the value of the Catholic Church, concentrated on the Virgin Mary and a Father God, and on ritual, as unable to answer his moral and metaphysical dilemmas. At the same time, realizing that the Church represents the female values of his mother, Tony cannot bring himself to accept the lawlessness, violence and unthinking sensuality which his father and older brothers symbolize. Instead through his relationship with Ultima, he discovers a oneness with nature.[30] Through his discovery that “All is One” he is able to resolve the major existential conflict in his life.

Antonio realizes at the end of the novel that the tension he feels as he is pulled between the free, open landscape of the llano, and the circumscribed river valley of the town, between the Márez’s way of being and that of the Lunas, and between Catholicism and the indigenous religion of the golden carp, does not require him to choose one over the other. He can bring both together to form a new identity and a new religion that is made up of both. Antonio says to his father:

Take the llano and the river valley, the moon and the sea, God and the golden carp—and make something new… Papa, can a new religion be made?[31]

In my opinion this is a must read book. I read it in high school and reread it in college. I’m due for a rereading again. A few years ago a movie was made from it, I also recommend the movie. But why, you ask?  I read this book at a time when I was questioning my own beliefs, so I connected with Tony on many levels. I often wished I had my own Ultima to help me through it all. I also loved that I got to learn things about my culture that no one was teaching me, about curanderismo, the old beliefs, and that we don’t have to believe what has always been believed. It is good to question everything.

Now for the spread, pictured below.  I’m using the Woman Rune Cards from Brigid’s Grove.

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1. La Grande: The people in the village refered to Ultima as La Grande, the Great One, she was a wisewoman and curandera. She helps Tony realize his destiny.

What people/experiences or elements are there to guide you in realizing your destiny just like Tony. 

Cards 2 and 3 are choices that Tony had to make.

2. Marez: Marez is Tony’s father’s last name, it means sea. Tony’s dad had hopes and dreams for him that were different than those of Tony’s mom. He wanted Tony to move west to California, to be an explorer, to be adventurous, to do all the things he had not been able to do. This is very common of Mexican parents, to expect that our kids will do what we could not. This is a heavy burden on the children because not only are they supposed to be making a life for themselves and their children, they also have to accomplish the dreams of their parents, and sometimes those dreams are not the same.

What choice will set you on the path to freedom and wild adventures?

3. Luna: This is Tony’s mother’s last name, it means moon. Tony’s mom also had a plan for Tony’s life, she wanted him to be a priest. She felt that all her other sons were lost to her because they had chosen to follow the Marez’ bloodline, she really hoped that Tony would stay with her and be a man of God.

What choice will lead you to settle down and connect to the earth and its rhythms?

Side note: I’m sure it’s no coincidence that the last names happen to be sea and moon, two things that are forever connected.

4. The Blessing: At the end of the book Tony asks Ultima to bless him. I loved this scene because it raised Ultima’s as the High Priestess. For my young mind, to have a woman do the important and sacred task of blessing someone was pretty mind blowing and empowering.

What blessing will you received when you realize the two choices above are not exclusive of each other but complementary?

Thanks for reading and if you do the spread tag me! I’d love to see it. I will be posting my reading tomorrow.

Writing was my first spiritual practice

 

notepad-691250_1280I started keeping a journal since I was in fourth grade in Mexico. My first diary was a gift from a friend. I wrote childish things, like any 10 year old would.

I took it to school one day and when I went back home it was gone! I was heart broken. I probably only had a couple of days worth of writing, but I felt traumatized that someone in my class was reading my deepest darkest secrets and probably laughing about them. I felt so embarrassed and angry.

I tried keeping a journal again, but I was always afraid that my dad would read it. He was always curious about what I was writing and thinking. That fear kept me from writing for a few years.

When I was in high school I was gifted a beautiful journal by someone at my church and I began writing. I told my dad he had to stop wanting to read my journals and I used to hide them in different places just in case.

During high school I needed to write, a lot. I had all these emotions and thoughts. I didn’t care if my dad read my journals any more. Now I understand that he was just curious about what I was thinking, he could have just asked!

After high school I kept writing. I filled notebook, after notebook, after notebook, until I had a pretty decent size collection. I was still afraid of my dad reading my journals so I made a terrible decision. I decided my journals would be safer with the boyfriend at the time. Little did I know. After I broke up with said boyfriend I lost all my journals because he would not return them. I still mourn the loss of all those years of writing. In those journals I recorded some major transitions of my adolescence, and they are lost to me.

Now I have a decent size collection again. I write to process things, to find answers, to vent, to record life, to leave something for posterity too. I can definitely say that writing has kept me sane for many years, and it will continue to be my go to spiritual and meditative practice. Being afraid that people will read your journals and violate your privacy was no fun though. I don’t feel like that any more. I write pretty freely, and look! I’m even posting it here on the internet for everyone to read!

What was your first spiritual practice?